"The hardest of all is learning to be a well of affection,and not fountain,to show them that we love them,not when we feel like it,but when they do"

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Showing posts with label Change. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Change. Show all posts

Wednesday, April 24, 2019

To the..

To the sweet good morning kisses and fiery nights.

Smelling the red wine in your muffled breathe while i lick your lips in anticipation. The red hot rods glaring at me from behind you as it cools our naked bodies in the winter.

All of a sudden its too hot in winters. When we are embraced in each others arms, my face reaches your armpit to snuggle and smell the sweat. Its sweaty and when i lick it, it tastes of ocean but i still love the way it feels, it arouses me.


Reaching up to your face i feel the prickly two day beard you have scrubbing my face, it burns so i move to capture your sweet and plump lips in mine. The smell of the garlics from the pesto spaghetti we had. Its mild and indulgent, almost makes me want to fill your mouth with some more of spaghetti and be fed from you.


Going to more intimate regions i smell the hunger emanating for her. So i lick and suck the sensitive zones which makes you hiss and moan. Caressing the bearings under them i plan to throw you in frenzy. Want to make you want me more.


When you caress my back with your hand, resting to pick and squeeze a bone you find. Crossing my hands behind my back just to see the protruding bones you picked on a while ago. I hiss and tell you to stop. You shower me with kisses.


"I imagined you in that short dress, how sexy you looked"  you say. I smile like i can see what you imagined. You curl a little more harder around me as if the imagination just turned real.
Your face, the marks and memory etched on them. I touch them and ask you the stories. Listening to them i am transported to that time where i can see as you go on unaware of the future, of the future where you would tell me all about it.


Barging into the room, you are singing same line of the song again and again in a cheerful and ecstatic tone. You have come back early from work you announce. I look at the smile on your face, it seems to be spreading all over you.


"When will you come back?" i ask and that is enough to make you distraught and cold. I want to take my words back because i feel like i committed a crime too grave. But its too late and your tone is condescending and behaviour is stolid while you give an answer appropriate in your mind for a crime like that.


The things are thrown around everywhere in that one room we are present. It's all too messy. I am careless and clumsy. Breaking a glass, the china bowl or that coveted bottle for storing water. I make a mess everywhere i go.


Simmering the milk on low i want to cook that sweet dish with dry fruits and tapioca pearls, after all you haven't eaten all day and kept fast. Just the way you like it, with no sugar and thickened milk.


"There are other things besides food and sleep, why don't you explore it?" you ask. "I do want to do that" i reply back. Not too convinced with my reply you glare at the mundane and monotonous way your life seems. I become a burden to you with my affirmation, making you realise how i am fine with just the way the things are.


I am a liar and a procrastinator. But i am also a lover and child at heart still making  out the head and tail of life. I want fairy lights, dreamcatchers, wind chimes, random and obscured photo of ours hanging from the rope pinned with a clip, bed made of wood crates, three sides of wall painted with white colour and one side painted pitch black, i want to lie on the cold ground with you in summer nights sharing a glass of chilled cocktail and watch the night turn into morning. But i have habits and expectations which dull all that i want. 


And all remains but nothing.

Sunday, May 06, 2012

Why can't we live?

Everything we do everyday bears a mark of us sometimes considered and sometimes ignored.We preach,eat,dance,laugh,cry,rant,complain,blabber,make love,flirt...so on and so forth.When our expectations are hurt or we are crippled advancing through a situation we fall in a chain of misery.Down the hollow sphere of hopeless and mindless criticism and useless advises(which would hardly be practical).
Have you ever felt blotted with lots of things?Felt like slammed right down that it shook you down the spine so bad that you can see the powdered bone but missed the cracking pain of it.
Why does it happens that whatever we do should be according to a question,accusation,reason or condition.Life of people living on planet "EARTH" Has gone utterly hay-wired and crazy.Earlier things were easier and simple.There was no door,no handle,no luxurious houses/bungalows,no fancy clothes..yeah i am talking about early humans.But then came inventions and ideas to make life simpler as they say.But the only view i am able to perceive is total complexity.All the things that were simple and easy are made hard and complex then exclaiming questions and decoding it back to simple.
It is all according to the sociological rule that what had started once long back is going to go through several changes making it different from the starting point and then it would be back to square one.
All this goes fine but why have people lost the very essence of living life.We are pushed beyond our stamina for a day(saying as matter of fact),join the race,get pushed around and go back home feeling tired so much so that we don't know what we are saying.Situations are controlling us and we are total slaves with a priority list hanging in front of our eyes(irrelevant of the fact that we are awake or sleeping) and the things we did earlier must have been a natural automatic impulse without the need of a list.Conditions are ruling us everywhere.Whatever sanity is left is with the new born month old babies.I don't even count the kids of age 3-9 years as innocent and untouched of worlds rule cause they are pacing ahead with knowledge more than necessary and inviting all the tensions much earlier than needed.
Is it really that difficult to switch off that laptop or mobile you are carrying on the weekends or perhaps say holidays to roam around and meet family or friends.No i have a better option let's do the interaction on skype.Technology has crippled us damn bad.I remember once being with my uncle in states and in his car was installed GPS which helped navigating the route anywhere but it came with a condition(it follows everywhere) that wherever the satellite had low signal or the weather wasn't fine it stopped giving you a way.And he felt like stranded on an island cause he had lost all his memory of directions of places once the GPS had been installed.
We build something to relieve our labor but what about the labor being put to planning it and making it which does not leave you with any strength to actually enjoy what is created.
We can go on and on about this like forever.So i would only say it's fun once in a while when you don't have a boss over your head or conditions weighing you down or a deadline or a project or a plan to advance.Enjoy the days cause there may come a day when weekends or holidays become history and Homo sapiens get a new name such as Robo sapiens.
Lets live!

Saturday, March 05, 2011

Change

This post has been published by me as a part of the Blog-a-Ton Season 2 edition 18; the eighteenth edition of the online marathon of Bloggers; where we decide and we write. To be part of the next edition, visit and start following Blog-a-Ton.
"Seasons change there mood so swift.
Seconds grow down to minutes,
minutes multiply and create hours,
hours in turn produce the days,
days gather up and form months,
months crowd out and year is made up."

Her spirited laugh echoed in air,
she was swinging in her toy.
The tears announced her as a graduate.
Agony streaked eyes; 
her lover has betrayed,
playing with her as if a game.
The night of bidding farewell to her home,
she had to make up one house of her own.
New persons mingling in her life.
She created her new paradise pretty nice.
Bunch of flowers bloomed in her lap.
She had her babies, 
and was addressed as mom.
Her garden full of love and cheer.
She grew old and witnessed, 
what her mother would have once.
Her children growing and parting, 
as the destiny had planned.
Withering away the life was,
little by little the breathe that got lost.
She journeyed down her life once again,
in her thoughts of growing and change.
Death prevailed in those serene eyes.

"Seasons changed there moods.
Seconds grew down to minutes,
minutes multiplied and created hours,
hours turned to produce the days,
days gathered up and formed months,
months crowded out and year was made up."


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