55 Fiction : Redefined

I wished for her warmth. 

So I lied next to her, smelling her hair. She smiled like nothing meant more than this moment. 

She kissed my lips and said I knew you would do this.

I sighed and snuggled closer to her wrapped inside one blanket. 

At last the winter nights were redefined for me.

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Like water to me..

I looked at the mirror for the umpteenth time.Why?

Because i saw you.I looked the first time and i....i thought i saw you.No that was not it.I went away for sometime and checked again.Yes there you are,still there.And now i am playing at this for so long.Coming,staying,watching,checking and going away.I'll keep on coming and going cause i want to see you within me,mingling with me.Cells with cells,beats with beats,breathe with breathe,scent with scent,you with me.

I am afraid.Of what?

Will i keep looking at you like this.Will you stay or you will fade away?I wish for you to mix,merge,splurge and color me in you.On those sleepless nights when i have felt a whispering in my ears,the hot breathe fanning my neck.The supple lips pecking each inch and pore of me.I am possessed,obsessed and hypnotized.Good or bad? Who cares,this is what i crave,covet,cherish and own.Your significance in my life if you ask,i shall tell you

                        I am parched like a desert land

                      Breathing in and out like a strangled being

                          I feel myself crumbling bit by bit

                       I am voiceless now,only the wind can make you feel

                              I am there somewhere

                                        Will you come searching for me?

                          Cause you are like water to me..

Sweet surprise

She stared the blue sky sitting at the beach.It wasn't sunny neither was it very chilly.Fairly pleasant wind was blowing as she was patiently waiting for him to arrive.Today has to be an important day,no it is an important day for her.She had been waiting for so long to pop this question to him.It did not matter if she was the girl in their relationship and he was the guy and the story should have been reverse.She was happy to take the initiative,if you want something you ought to ask for it.The wind ruffled her skirt and she continuously smoothed them.She had worn his favourite dress today.A black colored long skirt with crimson colored top.She had tied her hair loosely leaving some strands to linger on her face giving her face a soft hue.Her lips shined as she had decided on a strawberry gloss and had lined her eyes with kajal.

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He was so confused today.Why was he behaving so,he had not given much of a thought earlier to what he wore but today it was different.Something told him to put on his best clothes.So he decided on a faded blue jeans and figure hugging black t-shirt.Leaving his black hairs to fall down simply which made his chocolate colored iris to shine brightly.He was late in deciding about what to wear but he knew she would wait.She had been always patient when it came to him.

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As he approached near the entrance of the beach,he could see from far away,she was sitting there gazing the sky.Today the beach wasn't crowded that much.He neared her slowly and patted her on back.She turned back,her face was a sight so beautiful that he was captivated.As she shyly said Hie,he emerged from his spellbound state.

Hie.How long have you been waiting for me?

A little bit but you came fairly early.

He chuckled hearing her response which made her blush.

So we have the whole day.What are we going to do?

For starters tell me why are you so late?

Well that i can't really tell you but ask me anything else.You know i would tell you anything.

Okay.You know what you are looking really handsome.

You yourself are looking beautiful my dear.

He gave her a hand and she took it to stand up.It was around 11:00am in the morning.She had come to this other city specially to meet him.And this special visit of hers was what made him predict that there was something she was planning on.They walked on the sea-shore hand in hand.He was hungry that she knew and could make it from his behaviour so she pulled on his hand which made him look right at her.

Yes my dear.

You haven't had anything from the morning isn't it?

Ah! Yes.Do you want to go some place to eat?

She shook her head and from her bag she produced a tiffin showing it to him.He smiled at her.She spread a sheet and sat,patting the other side in front of her.He sat down.

Always ready as ever Sneha.

Only for you and with you Paarth that you know.

As she opened the tiffin,he was happy to see she had cooked his favorite.They ate while chatting about various things.Sharing a bite between them at times or he putting a bite in his mouth and he putting a bite in hers.He looked at her intently.And she exclaimed What?

You know you are going to tell me something.

Yes i am but why do you always know what i have in mind?

I don't know i can read you may be.

Okay now that you have broached this subject.Here.

She took out another box from her bag and opened the lid.There inside was placed a chocolate truffle cake.

Oh!For this cake.That is so sweet of you.

As he took the box from her and a spoon she offered,he plunged the spoon inside the cake.Scooping a piece he put the spoon to her mouth.She did not open her mouth.

This is for you.All of it.

Are you sure you are not going to have any?

Yes.

He ate half the cake at times looking at her with a naughty gleam in his eyes.Then he offered a spoon to her.She finally took the bite.And at that very moment she realized something.She motioned him to come near her and kissed him while the cake rested inside her mouth.He stopped all of a sudden opening his mouth he pulled out something.Watching his amused expression she started laughing.

What is..It is a ring.

She took it from him and said Paarth I love you so much and i want to spend the rest of my life sharing each day with you.Will you marry me?

He was speechless and he put his hand in front of her.

Is that a yes?

Of course.I want to marry you.

And she pushed the platinum ring onto his ring finger covered in chocolate.She was beyond happy that he had accepted her proposal.The platinum ring marking the event nicely.As she gave a promise to him in this form of ring to always be there for him and to cherish their relation forever just like platinum.He hugged her tightly.As they sat their hugged planning about their wedding they realized the sun was already setting.They watched the sunset mesmerized as the sky was painted in a pinkish orange hue holding each others hand......To hold on to each other forever..

Paranormal

From past two three days interestingly i am engaging in chit chats regarding the paranormal realm.When i was small i used to be so afraid of these things and i remember i told my mother that i won't ever be able to go out in dark alone like you do it is so scary.And my mother used to coo me saying everything will be alright when you grow up.I failed to understand her then but now i know what she used to say.
Now these things or i should rather say mysteries catch me off guard. I stick to them instantly without even my realization.They intrigue me to great heights.People in general are afraid of this but i feel a thrill reach down me standing alone in the dark trying to feel presence of others residing in the parallel dimensions.A eerie shiver runs down my spine and a tiny speck of fright leaves with it,then all lies is a soothing aftermath.
All it needs is a connection,no matter how little it may be.It helps so much to connect with the YOU inside you.
The esoteric signs and symbols are around us everywhere.But as the word says it is only to be understood by the people who can understand the mystic and religious connotations.Everything that happens around us is calculated and predictable.Some people are afraid when they know that something is predictable others merely prepare themselves to enjoy the predicted without tampering the calculation.The harmful ones are those who know what is going to happen and tamper with the calculation involving themselves in a lifelong misery uncalled for.

There is a barrier between illusion and reality.What do you do when they permeate their boundaries to bind with each other and mix like they were never separate?

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To him,to home..

I laid covered in his arms,

listening to the lilting hush-hush of his breathe.

I inhaled in scent of roses and chocolate.

That i could identify anywhere.

As he clinked our glasses,

filled with crimson delight ,

sparkled in the late winter moonshine.

His inebriated eyes shone at par with moonlight.

He hummed a tone softly near my ears.

I closed my eyes and soaked in the moment,

keeping silent cause i knew my words slurred unlike his.

The touch of skin on skin soothed my nerves.

I felt at peace in that embrace.

I knew i was home at last;

I belonged to him ,

and he told me he is mine.

Tonight:Sleep with you!

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I looked through the window.And he smiled looking at me.Showered me with his pale milky light,promising me to cradle me in his arms with a subtle sleep tonight.I kissed him and he caressed my forehead.He walked near me accompanied by his beloved adornment the night.Moved a flick of hair to see my closed eyes with the help of his dear friend gentle breeze.I finally had a smile on my face after a long tiring day.To sleep with my moon tonight,i lay bare covered by him today! 

The scent..

A fragrance wafted in the air.I thought i knew it as i was nodding my head with the beats of the song playing on my i-pod.And as i reeled through each song i could find some bits of memories from my life matching with the wordings of the song.Sure thing happens with most of us.So back to the fragrance.I knew that i have felt it before somewhere but where that was the question.

I looked out of my room struggling out of the warm blanket wrapped around me.There was utter darkness and pin drop silence.Then with utmost precision i opened the creaking window.With full care so that it doesn't wakes anyone else.

I looked outside and there was no one but i could feel the scented air.The diffusion had been slow as the scent came in small bits after every absorbing moment.

I got up and went outside.The night looked more beautiful when you can feel it engulfing you.And that is exactly what i felt,one with dark and silence.

I moved through the wet grasses bare foot,as my anklets jingled happily.There was no tree around our house and nor could anyone find a house to call neighbor before walking 3 kms.

I moved on watching the fireflies flying in the tall grasses.The owls eyes shining perched upon a distant tree.The stars were gazing me and moon was lighting my path.I could feel myself going closer to the scent.And there I saw it.The one fragrance that made me way happy.

As i could feel the winter chills advancing with each passing day.And so i realized it's time for it.The circle of white bunches of pretty flowers scattered underneath the tree.It was the saptaparni(Indian Devil tree).

I lied over there covered in night's beauty.Melancholic calling of the owl in my ears.Accompanied with the heavenly scent of the flowers.And i wasn't aware for how long i stayed that way.Only realizing with the first dew drop falling on me that it's time for the sun to shine and fragrance to fade away with light.

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You and me..

Galore of mysteries unfold!

From your tousled hairs,

which i brush with my hands.

From your sweet smile,

that i glance in moments.

From the shut eyes,

through which you still look at me.

From the quivering lips,

that i taste bitter-sweet.

From your moistened eyes,

that i wipe away.

From your embrace binding me in,

that i savor every bit.

From your heartbeats,

that i lie on your chest and hear.

From the silence of us,

that the undefined relation holds;

Of you and me the story unfolds.. 

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Her memory..

This entry is submitted by me for Thursday Poets Rally Week 44,


Misted air of laziness covered up.                                          

Resuscitating from the blown smoke in air.

Iris hued blue ,opened wide staring infinity.

Galaxy of untouched and unscathed mysteries unfurled, 

Aficionado like he flew through them.

Nostalgia sped past while reviving her memories.

Kef it was as her reflection drugged him.

Dolce as she liked to address him echoed in his ears today.

Ubique her aura surrounded and he submerged.

Beguiled smile of her imaged in his eyes,

Eroding the left patience and calm.

Yearning was reignited yet again.

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Glossary-

Kef-State of dream or drug-induced repose

Dolce-Sweet

Ubique-Everywhere

Wait..

Remember the words we made together,

the tunes we heard together;

the way we felt each other;

The intense breathe collide.

The soft touch of lip on lip,

the play of tongues inside.

the casual relation that bloomed.

The way you called me sweetheart,

and i called you baby.

Our silence that spoke with each other,

never failing to talk even one day.

The anxious feeling when finding either of us sick.

Now i wait for us to be together again,

for our laughter to echo,

for each other to touch,

for the emollient caress,

for the lovely whispers,

for the unsaid wishes,

for the sparkling desires to ignite,

for the eye play,

and for you to say just a 'Yes i do' .....

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In disguise..

Holding your dreams.

I lie in my thoughts.

Embrace the wonderful site,

and wish to never get cross.

Caressing every of you,

i don't want you to get lost.

The breathe i take in,

of sweet lilac and lavenders.

Kissing you deep,

all i surrender.

Your light touches me every night,

makes me glow with a special shine.

I look at you every day through my hungry eyes.

With passion they fill and i am no more lonely.

When the night arrives i see you,

and i don't need to think.

You become my reality from thought.

Where i clasp you for real,

hold your hands,

kiss your lips.

As i try to open my eyes,

realize it was a somnolence in disguise.

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Piece of heaven..

She had this feeling before she remembers,at that time it was a little crush of those starting years of knowing and exploring the word love.It's not really love so that's why they named it crush.She had it on her uncle he was handsome,young,tall and dark as most of the romantic novel say about a man.Today it was different story she loved someone who was very young to her.And yes it was love not infatuation.She was a professor in a college while teaching she had communicated with hundreds and thousands of youngsters.She wasn't married even at the age of 36,she actually didn't believe in it.She had seen her family,her mother and father used to spend nights fighting over a word one of them might have thrown accidentally at each other.
Siblings were never part of her life,she had just some cousins to call her own and they also had her as the shoulder for crying.The sorrows of others life were well soughted out by her.Lonesome at first,very introvert she never used to like people around her.After gradual changes in herself and her confidence she started to face the world and made quite handful of friends.From the handfuls only two or three might have been able to connect to her but then they also had life and couldn't stay with her for lifetime unless yeah they loved her(guy) or couldn't think up straight(girls).After finishing her schooling she realized the truth the bitter way because after you have been lonely and a transition period of friends circle comes in scene and when you return back to where you were it doesn't feel normal in anyway.
She adapted to it well,thought that studies were the only way she could be diverted and so she studied and attended almost all the lectures in the college because she couldn't have made new friends at the cost of herself being alone again the next time she finished up college.And now Mahi was a professor of botany.
In her 12 years of teaching she had never liked a guy that much,and she was quite embarrassed at the thought of having even thought about him this way.Himanshu was a bright student,very different from others and in a way he also could connect with Mahi quite well.He used to miss other lectures but never of her.
One day he had the courage and he went up to her and asked her 'Mam can I have your number?i had some doubts to talk about.' She was more than happy as if waiting for this opportunity to knock on her door and she eagerly handed out her number written on a piece of paper.He might have been around 20 or 21 appealing characteristics of face,tall,nice built and lots of girl were on the verge of falling for him.But for him it was different, he was also an introvert,shy and studious kind of guy.Had just two friends there.


He called her up in the evening and said hello with quite a unsure tone.
Mahi-hello,is this himanshu?
Himanshu-Yes mam,but how do you know that?
Mahi-Just identified from your voice.So what were the doubts you had to talk about?
Himanshu-It's not related to classes really..
Mahi-Then what is it?you had some fight in college or girlfriend problem?what is it?
Himanshu-I kind of like someone in the college.She is very beautiful and..wait do you have problem if i talk about this with you?Your husband or children won't mind right?
Mahi-Actually himansh i don't have anyone to call my husband or kid.
Himanshu-Oh great! Oh i mean..
Mahi-Oh i hear that spark in your voice what is it ?come out with it.
Himanshu-Mahi i love you!
(She was on cloud nine and couldn't believe her ears)
Mahi-Don't you like someone in college?Why did you have to say it to someone that too me,your teacher?
Himanshu-Because Mahi i can't stop feeling the way i feel for you.Do you feel the same way?If you don't then i promise i would leave this college and have admissions done some place else away from you..
Mahi-Himansh I love you too..but..
Himanshu-But what?
Mahi-You and i are student and teacher,we cannot breach this relation and code of conduct.
Himanshu-Oh come on love doesn't understand any of these.I have always admired your words,you,your attitude,your smile and what not..I am so much in love with you and don't know any other way to say it.
Mahi-Meet me on braige beach.Today 9 o'clock if you don't have problem in your house with your  parents.
Himanshu-Yes I'll be there.


They hang up and then they meet at 9 o'clock on braige beach.There is this moonlight glowing on the cascading waves,gentle breeze is flowing.Mahi is there in a white dress,bathed all in the light of moon,sitting with crossed legs,staring into the unending sea and her eyes speak like never before.Her pink lips were a delight to watch at,her long black hairs flowing down her back,eyes held a innocent wish and heart yearned.Himanshu comes and sits beside her.She holds him tight and embraces him and he can hear muffled voices.She is uncontrollable and crying.She has never thought that she would have an opportunity to hold the person she had loved first time in her life and according to her which was impossible.
Himanshu slowly raised her chin and spoke to her with a low and sweet voice "You i don't know..i feel like i have been meant to connect to you this way only.I love you so much ,words would be surely too less to tell you..(while saying all this he wiped her tears)
Mahi looked up in his eyes with red eyes and sighed..she felt like watching a dream in front of her eyes.She couldn't believe the reality.Her heart beat like a million times in a minute..or so she thought.
they didn't ask about each other..they didn't want to ask what was their past and what will there future be like..they just knew one thing and that was just love.


Yes it's difficult to think like it.People say only love won't suffice every need of yours but when you really do fall in love ,you'll surely know the magic it does ,the fireworks it explodes,the way it brighten ups the day,the heavenly feeling of being on cloud nine..it's imaginary but very close to reality of what wonders love can do.Just feel the present..past has gone..future is to be of what you do in your present.It didn't matter to them whether one was old or young,all that meant was their frequency,their need to be complete with each other,the need for two imperfect beings to unite in perfection...Love was all in the night air,the moon seemed to glow more than ever,the breezes played with her hairs and tousled his as well.That night was their own creation and the future will be too..It was pure without the hunger of lust,just to drown and indulge in the beauty of a SOUL.


Does age really matter in love(it's your view)?
Does age really matter in love(society says :) ?
Does society means more than love?


Sweet-bitter sensations,sparkling magic all around..cupid strikes it's arrow and love is all that spreads in the air.
P.S.-The questions can be answered in the comments or can be just thought about.. :)

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Blindfolded..

I laughed at myself,

was turned around after the blindfold.

He gave assurance with his words,

left me to find him.

In the deep forest that i was being led to,

i didn't knew it was such lovely pain,

To touch him back!

Let him open the tie!

I stood there, 

the whole world was all black.

I dared on the journey, 

to let know that path of glory.

The steps weren't trodden before,

with each step i could encounter, 

a slither,

a bite,

a prick,

a soul,

a ghost,

a cover,

a linger, 

or just him..

But after i walked a while,

I knew i wasn't led the right way,

 didn't lead to him.

It lead to a cliff, 

from where i would fall forever.

So i laughed at myself,

was turned around after that blindfold.

The betrayal turned ecstatic,

as i stood there, 

waiting for the game end.

To have loved and lost

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A love. 

Unsaid,unspoken of.

It was silent,

and ephemeral for the moment.

When it spoke,

it left a trace,

of pain and longing.

For the someone who never existed.

I cuddled up in his arms,

stared him inside through the eyes.

Mesmerized by the glance,

he blew a kiss towards me in air.

And i asked him in a tone so low,

Do you trust me?

He murmured a yes.

Clasping him more close,

i entwined my fingers in his.

He kissed my hands.

And i asked in a hushed voice,

Do you owe me something?

He hushed back with a yes.

I placed my head on his chest,

hearing the heart beat.

He brushed my hairs, 

aside from over my eyes.

I asked almost in mute whisper,

Do you love me?

He did not reply.. 

We lay there the same way, 

almost time spent like eternity.

And the silent night silenced. 

In the abyss i fell very afraid.

I opened my eyes, 

and a tear trickled down.

I saw his eyes moistened too.

He spoke caressing and kissing.

'Ask no question and hear no lies.'

If i get away and the promises die down,

I don't want you to wait for me.

I don't want you to stay alone.

I don't want you to harbor the pain.

I don't want to break you apart.

I don't want to leave you to never ever come back..
"So i go away from you before i fall for you"

A love. 

Unsaid,unspoken of.

It was silent,

and ephemeral for the moment.

When it spoke,

it left a trace,

of pain and longing.

For the someone who never existed.

Your breathe..

The breathe that was touching,

silent in the air.

Caressed each tangle, 

with a soothe of lifetime.

Each word that got whispered to me,

every step that concealed in me,

nearing me each moment it was,

Hard to believe that it cling to me.

I had never felt it so assuring.

It was full of warmth and hidden care.

If it were a dream,

i wished it to never end. 

The bitter-sweet magic,

of pain and love, 

hard to find the distinctness.

Molding me into it was, 

as if i were to be,

a princess of his dreams.

Making me do to what pleased him.

Eternal sparkle spread all over,

as if the universe had been waiting for this.

For waking the supreme time.

For the history is being created.

To fill itself in the pages,

and grow as ancient as ages.

Softly it placed;

sweetly it said;

Passionately chased

the breathe it said-

"Till our souls break apart." 

P.S.-This entry is submitted by me for Thursday Poets Rally Week 40, 

Alcina