Twisted rejection

The lush green grass,the beautiful flowers of different colors and the patient night sky adorned with stars and moon.All were looking disheartening and sad to her.Her mind was reeling from what she had heard some days back,though it felt just moments ago.The perspiration was dropping and dripping from her forehead.The clothes that she wore cling to her drenched body.She pushed herself though her feet ached and she knew the consequences of it tonight won't be good when she would lie down on bed.But hell who cared she for now wanted that suppressed anger to drip down with the sweat.It was giving her peace to gulp air in plenty through her open mouth and exhale plenty.The adrenaline rush it gave distracted her mind for sometime.She was jogging in that huge park which she once thought would never be possible for her.After all anger and grief makes you do things you thought you would never do.
The bitter hurt that stuck to her.He did not make it obvious,wrapped it up in a sweet disguise.It pained when she heard those words of twisted rejection.It shot through her spine triggering her mind just to make all the thoughts halt on his words.Everyone cannot wield the power of hurting you just like that.When you put in the trust and blind faith in the picture it makes complete sense.She fucking devoted her life in him just to be rejected one fine day.It was too late to move on or turn back.She had to choose between living with memories or cut out the life with him that was.How can one think of pulling out a heart and still to live.The fix was unbearable she wanted him as much as one needed oxygen.Her only lifeline had been him.
But her mind chided and mocked her "Your heart has been shattered so that you get to give it to no one else ever".Her legs felt like jelly and she thumped on the ground all of a sudden.Covering her face in her hands she cried,not knowing what else could ease her pain.

Lost identity

They told her to trust them,she did.

They said they'll be there when the times are grey,she believed.

They told her they were saying the truth to her,she strived.

But a time came and she was standing there in the cold,

the rain was pouring so heavy and ruthless.

She looked back to find the trusted one but there was no one.

Silence emblazoned all around.

She wept till the tears ran dry.

No one held her in their arms.

No one cared for her but themselves.

No one caressed her and assured time ahead will be kind.

They had lied straight to her face and she lay there crumpling alone.

Scattering with every drop that hit her.

Breathing was laborious,but she breathed till

She wasn't what she was anymore!

Can't you understand me?

At times you are talking with someone on phone or face to face and you want them to understand.Now the question is what do you want them to understand.Some might think that whatever is being talked about..well yes..some might think what is the state of the talker..well yes again..But what i am going to talk about is understanding what a person is expecting in the core of their heart.
People who have known each other for longtime know the other persons activities,reactions and habits.So based upon that after a while they hint whatever they want from the other person but yet that doesn't come.What makes a person change so much that they forget to do something which was so very normal.
A conversation would make you understand better,here it goes:

Known for about an year
"He-Hey
She-Hie
He-You know my day was so adventurous today.I did a lot of fun stuffs and learnt new things.
She-Nice.Even i had a fun day.
He-So what were you doing?
She-Completing some work and thinking about you.
He-Wow! Even i was thinking about you.I am missing you.
She-Aww..I wish we could meet."

The guy knew the girls motive was to know if he felt the same about her like she did(the missing thing).

After 3 years
Mind you they still talk nicely and the relation is maintained steady.
"He-Hie
She-Hello
He-Did you read the newspaper today?
She-Yeah.I know right you are talking about the 'Words' topic written there.
He-Exactly! It is so amazing.
She-I know.You know i was thinking about you.
He-Ok! So how is everyone at home?
She-They are doing good.You know i missed you.
He-I see.
She-What were you doing?
He-Nothing much.Was just reading the article."

Now here you see she tried hinting him so many times to know if he felt the same way.But he won't budge.Once if this happens is sort of understandable.What would you think when this repeats again and again whenever you try?
At times it happens with me too that i want someone to understand what i want but they don't even seem to consider let alone think about it.
Change is fine but what if it leads to a person so void of understanding?

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Captured..

Gleaming eyes told him a different story.He smiled and said hey you look happy today.Sitting in a coffee shop with him every time they met wasn't new to her.She hated coffee when she was with him this she could not tell him.She blinked two-three times and gazing at his beautiful face she said i always am when i am with you.He pouted his lips and said really?

She just giggled.The comprehension of a relationship between them was hard.It was sometimes love,spice,fun,wild but never hatred.Despising wasn't something that came easily to both of them at least for each other.
In between the small chit-chats they shared weird secrets.At ease with each other.
She blinked twice and captured the moment.Saying in her heart "Here goes in memories my chance at forever".

55 Fiction:Lie..

I have given you my word.Don't you trust me on it?
She did not raise her wet hazel eyes to meet his.
He pulled her by the chin and said Look at me.
Why should i trust you?
Because...
This is not the first time you lied to me about i being your priority.....