For the
things you do and don’t do, there maybe a reason or two or maybe none. You just
do something as if an invisible hand just made you do it. When we are done we
realize it through the after effects.
A friend
of mine pretty boastful said she doesn’t need someone in her life to be alive.
The concept of talking everyday with boy-friend is something which isn’t
possible in reality she said. The girl and the guy both need space in their
life.
These
were her thoughts when she first talked about love, girlfriend and boyfriend.
She said once she had a boyfriend and that was it. She likes her current state
of singlehood.
I didn’t
probe her to give more and neither did she willingly disclose anymore
information.
This was
the story of the second day of us being acquainted with each other. We were
walking back home together as we lived nearby. I bid her a goodbye and left on
one of the ways in the fork.
She
talked way too much for my liking. I met her almost everyday but somehow I got
used to with her chatter, after sometime her talking didn’t bother me so much.
She got really close to me. She shared things and a secret or two.
One fine
day I got a little bit more of her previous love story. But I knew that was not
all.
She has
become committed once more and this time it was her best friend. They knew each
other but understanding seemed a whole different ball game in their relation.
She
wants to talk to him everyday. Her changed sentence was that she cannot live
without him in her life. When she is not able to talk to him even a day, she
becomes very anxious.
I see
her and think that what is affecting her this much. Her face is completely pale
and it seems she hasn’t slept all week. She tells me they are not able to talk.
I think
there is something more but then again maybe I am reading in too much.
Today it
happened so that I wasn’t wrong after all. It was her previous relation which
affected her today so much. She told me she wants to be informed that someone
is going out of her life.
I ask
her the reason of breakup in her previous relation.
Her
answer was
“He never told me, he just went away. He did
not respond to my message and did not talk to me. He just left.”
The guy
is precious in her life, her current relation is her heart. She doesn’t want to
loose the guy. She doesn’t want to be hanging and left without any reason.
Each day
that she can’t talk with him, she thinks maybe he is on the way to leave her.
She says maybe he deserves much better than her.
I tried
to console her with words and told her that nothing of that sort will happen.
That maybe the previous breakup had something good for future. But she is
shaken too deep. Her wound is yet not healed. I hope she gets over someone who
did not deserve her. I hope he heals her past.
