Loyal Companion

"I used to sit in your room and not open the door or the window because you did not like it. It was difficult for me to stay in the room whole day and not go out. But I did it because you liked it that way."

Caging someone in a place where they have to kill their wishes just so that you can be happy.

Controlling your emotions because your emotions will effect someone else.

Relations are always complicated. Sacrifices are the biggest mistake and compromises are key to weaken relations day by day slowly.

Expect but don't expect those expectations to get fulfilled. Life is as it is so difficult and here we get up and make promises to make it more difficult by being in love .

What is right? What is wrong? Who is right? Who is wrong? Whose wishes should be fulfilled and whose done away with?

Make somebody miserable once and then let it be long enough and let that be the last one. Go on with your life alone because as I said it's already difficult itself.

The only loyal companionship that can be  is with hollowness. It never leaves you. Never.

In need of ME..!!(2)

It's a part two to one of my very old poem.. > In need of ME..!! 

Wavering in the wind,

teasing thyself.

Once again Ripping m/e

The game that was on, 

of shadows and stares.

Present one moment,

bygone the other right there.

Curling the words in mouth,

it couldn't produce to m/e.

Me consoled and caressed m/e.

M/e seemed numb and dead.

Me wouldn't give up till m/e resurrects,

through the ghastly whirlpool and currents.

Bloody battling of piercing words.

Loathed atmosphere that remained in past,

once again lingers upright and erect.

The growling need haunts again,

and me promise this time,

me shall put it to end.

The pain of m/e me engulf.

M/e let mocking shadows burn me to ashes.

Me ceases m/e screaming.

Shadow's hunger and passion sufficed.

My separated m/e joined again.

Me mingles to the healed M/e..!!

Connection..

This Entry is submitted by me for Thursday Poets Rally 52


She softly mumbled near his ears.

He was departing and couldn't hear.

He was in a surge for somewhere urgent.

Her eyes coruscated and a tear exuded.

Conceiving about him.

The day ran in haphazard.

Intermixing,remixing and varying.

Her eyes coruscated and a tear exuded.

Conceiving about her.

The day expected just urgency.

Working,managing and balancing.

His lips turned to a beguiling smile.

The sun scorched,

and their day commenced in delusion.

The moonlight proliferated,

and their reality induced.

Miles apart from each other,

the longing has always been such.

Heightening and dropping frequencies,

once he sighed other she sighed.

He came all the way,

his urgency are over now.

The day expects nothing from him,

as she knows as of now.

Coming closer he heard what she whispers;

"Take care my love and smile always"

He smiled and embraced her,

as she knows as of now.

Received..

She was a housewife.She had big dreams of becoming a professor of English literature.But when she was married without her will,she had to agree on the terms and conditions laid by her husband.He was one of the CEO 's of a company.They were childless even after 4 years of marriage.They never knew each other personally.It used to be as if she was the waiter of the hotel,he used to come eat,ask for the room,sleep,get up in the morning and get all his things up-to date and leave the hotel to come back again in the night.

She........oh had nothing to do.The only pleasure she had was of a call that she used to get or give.She had abandoned her dreams,hopes,aspirations and emotions somewhere she could not be able to visit mostly her soul could not.

That moment of the interrupted call was too long for her like lots and lots of years that have passed in a fraction of a second.The door bell rang,she kept the receiver back in its place and received her visitor of the night which was same as all these 4 years. 

Yes,she used to talk to a guy which was not her husband.He was a petrochemical engineer and had been working for three years now.

There was once this boring party that she had to attend with her husband where she excused herself for sometime to the washroom so that she could overcome her tears and not let the Kohl liquidate (those tears were natural after just 2 months of marriage,she took much time to abandon even them).

This guy entered and smiled looking at the mirror,which was more to her than the mirror.She was somehow happy to see that smile and surprisingly she smiled back at him.He noticed her glowing watery eyes and asked if he could talk for a moment with her.They spent fifteen minutes there inside and she had open up whole of her life to him.She was amazed that how much she needed to open those lips.Then he said we can keep this going on for as long as she wished to but now that she has told him about her husband,he said "exchange numbers if you feel free to talk".Without a second thought she wrote something on a paper and handed it over to the guy.

From the other day on they took to talking with each other.He used to share up everything and she the same.That day she had gathered all the courage left in her and told that how much she loved him.

So as her husband came and sat on the table to be served with his food.The phone rang up.She was carrying a glass of water ,it slipped out of her hand.She ran as fast as she could towards the phone.She picked it up and she knew who it was.He said from the other end "I love you too"...."leave him right away,I am gonna marry you".She was in tears after such a long gap,those were the tears of happiness and his husband was standing right there over the table,looking livid and as if inebriated.

She kept the phone and looked towards him and said "I have done my duties for years without a word with you, neither you tried to talk.You have been busy all these 4 years and we were bound in a contract and not love after that marriage.I have hated each moment with you.And now at this very moment wish to leave you".

He said softly with those red eyes glistening as if about to cry "I have been too scared of this contract that you stated just now.I never wanted it to happen ,i loved someone and that person died.I could not be happy anymore after that and this was forced upon me by my elders.And today i am happy that you have your love and could speak this freely to me.Order me rather than request.Go and i won't stop you.You would receive the divorce papers as soon as possible from my side".

Her happiness knew no bounds,she packed her things up.She headed towards his place and he was there standing on the door with that assuring smile to receive her in his arms.

Now it has been almost 2 years after that day of interrupted call and she is happily divorced from her husband and married to her love.Maya is expecting her second baby with Paarth and is teaching as a professor.Maya has the perfect life right now and she has revived all the dreams,hopes,aspirations and emotions.She has found her soul-mate and their life.....

P.S.-Edited to rectify mistakes by mystic.payel .(in red)

कोहरा ..

महकी ज़मी थी 

सांसे हवाओ में घुली थी

एहसास उनका था हर पल में

रौशनी हलकी सी थी अँधेरे में|

ठहर गया था वह वक़्त इज़हारे मोहब्बत में

हमारे इकरार में आखिर हो चले 

बेखबर दीवाने से वो ||

उजला सम्हा था सुबह के कोहरे में

कह्कशाएं दिख रही थी 

उस  नरम रात के धुएं में||| 

Aditi Forever Yours..

12am-14 February

A number blinked and she heard “Summer has come and passed..” and she smiled and picked up the call. He wished her happy valentine my love. How have you been in these two days? She answered “Not so good without you. Tell me when are you coming back to hold me in your arms tight?” He said honey I will ring you up in twenty minutes as our flight will land and then I can talk without any network break. She replied “Ok”.

And the call cut. She held his pillow close to herself and longed for the moment that really had him holding her and not she holding his pillow.

3am-14 February

She was called down by her mother in-law. “Aditi…Come down fast” she said in a serious tone on the call. She rose from the bed hurrying down the steps of the stair straight to her mother-in-law. She briefed her up and Aditi became silent. After some moments of standing there and witnessing something which she didn’t have the courage to understand, she walked back up to her room in the apartment.

She started thinking of the day she had lost her parents when they committed suicide just because they thought they could not suffice on what her father earned. She had hated them for doing that but was very sad as she lost them. She was just 10 years old back then and had just known what actually ‘Suicide’ meant after what her parents did. She lived after that with her grandmother and had the least longing of love from her. So she just used to feed all the good things her grandmother used to tell her and love her just for the way she had given her all the needful after her parents died. She was getting old and knew that she could not be taking care of her granddaughter so she decided of getting her married when she was completing her 2nd year of B.com. She barely knew what marriage was but she was told by her grandmother that her to be husband would love him more than anything..He would give her love more than her parents gave her. So with this thought she was married to Mrinal and left her education halfway in expectation of love that was negligible in her life till now.

After marriage she saw the words of her grandmother were true he loved her more than he did himself. And she was very happy and she knew no one could ever love her more than he did her. But today it was the hell that broke loose on her. It had been two years she had been feeling like heaven with him. What all she asked for, what all she longed for, what all she craved for, her every need and most importantly the need of love was fulfilled by him. She was informed by her mother-in-law today down the other room “Your husband is no more he has died in the flight landing crash” And after that her ornaments were removed, her mangal sutra was taken off, her vermillion was wiped away.

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She sat on the chair which was placed in front of the mirror. She saw herself, she looked at her face it was in pain, grievance and bore the agony of loss. She stood up and walked towards the cupboard taking out her bridal dress, the jewelries and the ring she had been presented by Mrinal as a token of love they shared. She wore the dress, adorned herself in the jewelries, placing the ring in her ring finger and lastly putting the vermilion between her parted hair she opened the door of her room.

5am-14 February

Walking past the corridor, climbing up the stairs she reached the terrace. She looked up at the sky, the stars shined brightly, the moon glowed. She looked at the brightest star and said “You have loved me the most and You will be the one to love me the most forever.”

And she walked off the edge of the terrace. Flying in air She landed 10 floors down on the ground. Covered all in blood she took her last breath smiling and whispering “I Love You”. And she proved her last lines right..She met him up above in the heaven to be loved forever the most by only him.

In need of ME..!!

Ripped Apart

Splashed blood all around,

Still dropping some in the silent vicinity.

Oh!! did you hear that--

Or did you missed that collapsing beat.

Like the wind chime of which sound dies out,

Heart setting its end fleet.

Like the boat nearing the unknown waterfall,

Moving on with full of zeal.

And the Horizon trying to meet Zenith.

That was my other half,

That was my soul that’s now torn apart.

It’s all imagined it is not like the lively beings.

Shadows mocking at M/e

My own separated from M/e

They grab me in this opportunity.

The half is there I know,

It’s just besides I know to console.

But today it screams,

It’s in pain indeed,

My other half is in need of ME . . !!