"The hardest of all is learning to be a well of affection,and not fountain,to show them that we love them,not when we feel like it,but when they do"

Saturday, December 31, 2011

Let them know;Happy new year!

Only if i could turn back the time.
Keep telling you how much i love you!
Only if i could hold onto the time when you hugged me.
I don't want you to leave,
and yes i love crying in your embrace. 
Drenching your shirt in my tears.
And right now i am missing you.....!
She wanted it to happen as it happened.She held no grudges or anger against this feeling,actually truly speaking she had never though of it like that.She didn't believe in it,she thought this was all to be written about and in reality nothing was like it.Her world had changed in those fraction seconds,she could have never imagined something so perfect happening to her,maybe for sometime but it was perfect and she was afraid to admit it as so.
She had talked with him for long hours,chatting away merrily about anything and everything.She had given her all to him without even her knowledge.He on the other hand tried to indulge equally in sharing as her.Their relation was not like normal day to day love story..and she had her full doubts that was this even one love story.But never mind she could not define the relation and neither was he able to do it.So they let it be for the moment,they let the question of what are we together and to each other remain unanswered but interestingly enough they even discussed future sometimes of them.Sometime the days used to feel dragging and sometimes the nights without each other in it (things of past mostly).They hung onto each other on silent calls,embraced each other without saying anything and ruled out the presence of a third person between them.These all were as and how their situations permitted.They could not meet that often so they called each other,if they met they made the most out of the meet and wanted just them there.
They had been talking very much,then the frequency decreased but didn't cease.She was hurt that he didn't pick up her call,she thought maybe he is bored of me.She had seen the most supporting and best friendship grow in between them yet she never called him a friend and she didn't want to loose that but yet she took chances and confessed her love for him.It took her quite a lot to say it but yet she thought she had not said it all but she knew she had lots of time to tell him about her love for him.He took to not understanding her and thought that if something was so important and had to be known to him,she will herself tell him.But how could she say all,she wanted him to feel and understand her which she could see was not happening.She had given her all to him and trusted him with the most beautiful to the most ungliest of facts about her.
She didn't regret having such a relation with a man but at the same time she could not help but pity herself for the condition she had pulled herself into.
Even now when he calls her and drops in with a sweet laughter and care for her,she forgets that how much he has hurt her.She wants to see him happy and contented in his life.Deep down inside her heart she knows that she wants him to say something...something which she can hold on to and believe that it is only and specially for her.She doesn't want kindness like to others,she wants what is hers.All she longs for is a honest reply,concern,love,care and some time out of his busy life.
The rocking chair creaked a bit,she was sitting over there with a cup of hot steaming coffee in one hand and a piece of paper in other.There was a thin ray of moonlight penetrating through the shut window.She could feel herself get drenched in the moonlight through the flimsy night gown she had put on that day.Through the the glass she could look at the moon.She was shivering from the chill the winter created.Calming her senses sometimes but it was hard not to think about him and not feel a bit lonely which ultimately intensified the shivers.She stared blankly into nowhere.The bitterness in her just got increasing with each passing moment that got by.How could he do that? was her only question.She had kept this question to herself for the whole time.It burned her and killed her every time she replayed back those lines in her mind.She couldn't take it anymore and finally dialed his number,it didn't take any effort to dial his number every time and she hadn't saved it and she didn't know why she always liked to press those numbers again and again.The call connected and she could hear the ring..
Paarth-How and where have you been all this while?
Rudhira-Nothing just thought would disturb you a little.How have you been?
Paarth-The usual as last time,nothing has changed you know.
Rudhira-Why the hell did you do that?
Paarth-What are you talking about?
Rudhira-I guess i don't want to talk about it but it is giving me hell of sleepless nights.Did you feel good when you touched the girls?when you kissed the girls?
Paarth-What happened?You have never asked me like this and it surely seems to be bothering you.
Rudhira-You won't understand would you?How much it pains to know all that.It stops me from doing anything and i just wish to go into a dark pit where my senses stop working and most importantly i don't need to think.
Paarth-I don't know what to do to ease your pain.Tell me how is everything at home?
He could hear her sob and she cut the call..
She saw the number flashing,he had called again but she just couldn't pick it up..as soon as the whole ring cut she switched off her phone.
She knew that after a day or two of her number saying switched off he would forget it all and she would be the one again initiating with a call.
What love does to one can only be known by the one loving is whats she said to herself.She sipped the coffee and held the hot cup close by herself and images of him,his smile and him sleeping all came to her mind.Eyes were filled with tears and she didn't know how to stop both the images and the tears from coming to her.She never knew that it could change her world upside down like that.She witnessed so many changes in herself after she had fallen in love and she knew that she was irrevocably and devotedly in love with him.

Ending the year with a sad post but never mind won't give a sad wish to you.
I wish all of you are closed to your loved ones celebrating this new year Smiley.Are you away? Dial their number and give them a call,surprise them and let them know how special they are to you and how you cherish the moments spent with them and wish them a great year ahead.Let them know now!!..right awayy..Smiley

Welcome to The Smiley Guide!  Last day of the year and surprisingly there ain't any feeling that is sprouting up in me that much.I felt the year has passed out very soon (passed out) Smiley as if it were some drunkard Smiley I had an awesome year here in bloggers and i got so many new people to interact with.Recently i had encountered some blogs and i was instantly mesmerized they were of Krishnapriya,Ishiyeta,Confused soul and Lady Fiona.Hope to read of you more from the next year.
So here is wishing all you lovely readers and writers a very happy new year 2012..Smiley

Enjoy,party,eat Smiley ,drink,drive safe and make sure you spend some time with the ones who love you and the ones you love Smiley  Smiley.

Smiley Smiley

Saturday, December 24, 2011


Can hear the whispers.
Indulge in proliferating presence.
Through the silent walls breaths echo.
Wincing and withering;
Resuscitating and repulsing.
Rolling inside and out,
penetrating so deep through and through.
Arousing and falling,
the crests and troughs,
of one beating heart that's ours.
Living and dying, 
remained without difference.
Enrapturing fiery seduction,
accompanied snarls and thrills.
Bare one soul lies breathless..

Saturday, December 17, 2011

You lead me away..

Shivering with the fever,
gyrating in circles through this complex.
Mind speeding up, 
toxins rushing in,
the high of the moment,
flirty mood gushes in.
You hold me tight,
jerk me from my dream.
I smile a bit,
giggling through rest.
You have shook me hard enough already
i say!
You have hurt me to reality already 
i say!
Now that you cant take the very thought,
the thought of going away from me,
of never having to hold me close to yourself again,
of never having me to quench your thirst again,
of never having me to paint your desires again,
of never having anyone to share with yourself again.
You have let me go away,
and now only thou shall decide,
to pull me till i come back,
or lead me astray..

Thursday, December 08, 2011


Soft snowflakes danced about on bare skin
Night adorned most beautiful jewel in it's collection

Darkness grew haunting and placid
Numbing my senses 

Thou grabbed hold of me,
through those invisible strands

Diffusing i were in your presence 
There i sublimed

Derived from ecstasy
Beaded with pain 

I coalesced with you
For you to forever reign

Sunday, December 04, 2011

In fervor

Dazed in prolific love..
I realize i am all yours baby..
Your touch
your caress
your embrace.. 
Just makes my craving more intense..
Bathing in pale moonlight,
bare we lay together..
Only love is reeling in air,
only life is what we are creating..
I can see the candle lights around,
i can see the rose petals that surround..
I hold you close and close my eyes..
Red lips consuming each other..
Pain and pleasure submerging in each other..
Feather soft touch while,
gripping and pinning..
 We play in fervor,
through the reigning winter glory..

Sharing it for the Poetry Picnic at The Gooseberry Garden 

Thank you so much Ava for this wonderful wintery award :)
And i would like to nominate Magdalena Herman  

Thursday, December 01, 2011


अजीब सी ख्वाइश पलने लगी है, 
जुस्तजु ही इक वह है,
जो दीवाने दिल को खलने लगी है ..
आज़ाद कर दिया है हमने,
उन मन की तितलियों को,
उड़ा दिया है उन्हें उस अल्हड हवा में.. 
अलफ़ाज़ जैसे गुम से गए हैं ,
हकीक़ते जैसे थम सी गई हैं ..
हम बेवजह बस चलने लगे हैं ,
ख्वाबो के आशियाने पिरोते इन नैनो में ,
सब धुआं हैं पल का ,
यकीन में ले चले हैं ...
कसक की दस्तक अनसुनी कर दी है.. 
अब ये खलिश क्या चीज़ है? 
हमे क्या मालूम.. 
रोना हमने बस बंद कर दिया है.. 
मखमली कडवाहट की चादर में, 
सर रख अब हम सोने लगे हैं ..

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

..Always yours..

Resting her head on his lap her joy knew no bounds.The last months spent without being able to meet him or talk to him had been like some harsh penance she had taken on herself.He turned her face towards his just to stare day long into those eyes.She raised her hands touching his face,passing through every outline of his cheekbones, Adam's apple,nose,eyes,forehead.And then she stopped resting her hands on his cheeks.She smiled a very unusual smile to which he looked at and said 'Areyy..'
She giggled knowing that he hadn't deciphered what that smile meant to convey.She sat up and told him to lie down.And after he lied down she too laid herself besides him.Both facing each other.She moved her hands to hold his,tight and secure just like she had thought while they were away.Their breathe was growing in amplitude and rhythm,too late to be able to stop.She struggled to move a bit above as for he was taller than him.Brushing her lips softly on his chest,neck,cheeks...He withdrew his hands from hers and cupped up his hands around her cheeks,pulling her very close to himself.He reached very near just some fraction of gaps left between his and her mouth.And he held himself back.She had closed her eyes by then,waiting for something that she could only let sink in with eyes closed.He looked gently at her and thought to himself how beautiful she looked with those eyes closed,a serene calm on her face,almost negligible breathe..she whispered 'are you afraid?'
He laughed softly and came just the close as he had left their lips.Pressing inch by inch he seemed to consume her with every moan and sigh. Tongues wriggling inside her mouth,it was dominating..he was dominating.She didn't want it to stop,thrusting deep inside her was his essence.She decided to play a bit when he paused to rest his tongue.She now played inside his mouth almost  winning the fierce battle.He laughed from in between all this.They parted their lips.She opened her eyes,they were red and moisture had started to build up in them.He embraced her tightly not wanting to let go for eternity.She dug her face deep down in his chest and moved her hands gently in his hairs.He caressed her back.Warmth was emitted in all possible directions around them.The winter had seem to vanish which had seeped only some days ago this November.The feeling of being able to experience the love out of this was just ecstatic.She could not make her brain to think anymore and he decided that his should shut too.Their beats were almost in sink.They could only hear the magical music of the silence accompanied by the soulful beats.
She wanted to say so much yet something held her back.She didn't want to ruin this feeling of submergence and possession which was beyond all the wordily pleasures.They held each other like the color of flames,cells inside body,horizon and sky...
She mumbled softly to him...Paarth I love you..
He kissed her and said Rudhira...stay with me..you were,are and will be always mine..inside my heart and merged with my soul..and..... I ..am always yours..!

Saturday, November 12, 2011


Lying down on numbness.
I can hear the throb still.
Pulsating in thy.

The moonlight's proliferating shine,
tricking my senses,
imagining pricks of snow-white flakes.

Arch-fiend unquestioning.
Resting his hunger on my lips.
Rough and dry through touches.

Pealing skin peeps out,
spouting fountains of crimson beads.
Unbound pain thrives to reach pleasure.

Hidden in the crevices of heart.
Flashing fiery desires that ignite,
sensational burst of chill.

You are covering me tight,
and secure so to warm.
The embrace smothering brilliantly.

Hurt just remaining a word.
Tears remaining frozen dew.
Do you care to mend the cracks?


Monday, November 07, 2011

In need of ME..!!(2)

It's a part two to one of my very old poem.. > In need of ME..!! 

Wavering in the wind,

teasing thyself.
Once again Ripping m/e
The game that was on, 
of shadows and stares.
Present one moment,
bygone the other right there.
Curling the words in mouth,
it couldn't produce to m/e.
Me consoled and caressed m/e.
M/e seemed numb and dead.

Me wouldn't give up till m/resurrects,

through the ghastly whirlpool and currents.
Bloody battling of piercing words.
Loathed atmosphere that remained in past,
once again lingers upright and erect.
The growling need haunts again,
and me promise this time,
me shall put it to end.
The pain of m/e me engulf.
M/let mocking shadows burn me to ashes.
Me ceases m/e screaming.
Shadow's hunger and passion sufficed.
My separated m/e joined again.
Me mingles to the healed M/e..!!

Tuesday, November 01, 2011

Hanged in space..

Standing on her terrace her mind roamed about in sheer randomness.She was thinking about her days happening not so happening she murmured to herself.In need of something her heart ached and she looked down into the empty dark space beneath her eyes which were now wandering outside the boundary of the secure railings of the terrace.
Parky wind flew from the front and she felt all her senses going numb as if they were trying to make her go calm and feel the chill right down her spine.How does it make a difference to the person she might be thinking about right now?Why does she have to think about that person and not about herself?
Each question produced a secondary..tertiary and so on and so forth questions ahead.Reeling in her mind like some unstoppable fierce wave engulfing with each proceeding.The aura of the night which was starting to mix with the pure white sky also couldn't soothe her to cease her from thinking.
She lied down on that dirty terrace floor avoiding any further questions flooding her mind.As she withdrew to watching the merger of the white and black she decided she would let her mind stop just for once.Her heartbeat rose a million times or so she imagined.A sense of excitement,enthrallment and nervousness gripped her whole being as she saw a number flash on her mobile screen.
She couldn't react to it fast cause she had time absorbing the very fact that the very thing she wished she could cut off from had given its hand out to her as if to stop her from falling in the unknown horizon.She pressed that small green color tab on her cell and bringing it in position to talk she said "hello"
But her voice was not heard as if the very sound produced inside her didn't come out and got lost in the mysterious realm of world.She tried again this time with much greater effort and finally said Hello..
She didn't hear anything back cause she didn't know what the other voice would say because her realistic world didn't allow her imaginary friend to become alive and reply.She had felt so lonely that she created a imagination out of her loneliness.She stared the mobile screen and laughed at her own conditions.How sane she was some months ago and how one confession has left her shattered and ruffled.
She replayed the conversation in her mind once again.That very day when she had confessed and revealed something she had concealed long even from herself,her heart,her soul..
Rudhira tried hard to understand..walk ahead..accept changes..but she was unable to and she always wished the things would fall in place just like she had seen them in the beginning with him.Paarth had been too adamant..not understanding a single feeling she would hint him with..Sometimes occupied with himself so much that he ignored the very fact of her being with him.
If she had a magic wand and she could tell him how much she was bearing right now within her..how much she wished that he enter her..how much she wished to meet him and let know what is desire,longing, belonging and possessiveness according to her..how much she wished him to know that how jealous it made her to know of someone else..
Paarth has been in his dream world for too long..has discarded the fact of understanding with heart..has gone too far..
She has left the stains of her cry on him..wishing one day that he would understand that what it is to be alone despite the fact that you had surrendered yourself with all your heart and soul to someone you understood..trusted..desired with..hungered the passion and lust equally with..and let the flaws be called perfection..
Is she not worthy of his choice?..is she not anything to him?..Is loving not enough to let him never leave her?..
She wished this ends soon..she wishes its not slow and painful..she wishes and she stares down watching the ground resembling an unending dark abyss..
She falls each time down and hard as she looks..she dies hundred deaths every moment missing his presence..she dies everytime she watches the solitary road welcoming her to submerge inside it..she dies watching the deep lake with its blue welcoming tinge..she dies everytime piercing herself with sharp edges to break the dream..she dies everytime watching the eager fire flame..she dies every time he wafts away her feelings like smoke in air..she dies every minute he spends with someone who didn't belong to him..
Patience has died down..eyes have lost their tears..saturation has been attained..wait is too short a word to describe the pain right now..

Saturday, October 29, 2011


A click of heartbeats together.
Intertwined fingers of his and her.
Dripping lusty desires of him.
Thirst of love gripping her soul every inch.
A moment so close, 
teasing one another.
She whispers soft in his ears.
Beats gone out of rhythm.
Tears brimming up the heart. 
Withdrawing the hold she leaves,
bidding him forever an adieu.. 

Sunday, October 23, 2011

100th post and sorry bloggie :( Belated happy birthday :D :P

This is my 100th post guys and it feels like just one of those days when i pen all the others but this time it is different it ought to be different.But nah! nothing as such.
This is going to be my second personal reflection on this blog so i am being a bit diplomatic yet want to be transparent about.And guess what i missed birthday of my blog :/ that is it's one year completion but never mind i wish him belated happy birthday now let me see how does it punishes me for being late in wishing :P

Anyway so i will start with the person behind this blog..yeah yeah i can see your eyes rolling and saying aah must be a guy after all most of you address me as a love girl.Yes it is a guy but not as you might have wanted :P ..
Like any other person you face online while on social circuits i encountered this particular person and then we talked and he invited me to create a blog to which i responded a bit reluctantly but still embracing the opportunity to see whats gonna happen next.It's not like i did not write before but it was not like this having your own space.I wrote there for sometime and then i withdrew my blog i.e. deleted it.Then after sometime i wished to write with a surrounding that called me and reminded me of me as my own.So i finally created Reigning wanderer which now i have changed into Afixxion Addixt !
I'll always be obliged to towards this person who made me unfurl in pretty,ugly,bad,happy,sad,rude,angry moods.If it weren't for him i wouldn't have got such wonderful people in my life through my blog.
All you followers who at times hop in to check and the ones not so regular have decorated my place with their own jewels.Thank you to all of you :)
So here we go a boring story finished :D
These people are just magnificent when talked with and i would like to thank them to spare time talking with me..
Beyond horizon:Her musings are magic and they sure to cast spell upon you too have tried to catch her online many times :P but now we have become wall chatters isn't that great? :D :P 
Eon Heath:has not been blogging much as of now but whatever he writes he puts in a part of himself and makes it come almost alive :)  
Fatima:true and honest confession but i seldom visit her blog but at a personal level we have talked so much i will call her my soul sister :)  
MAVERICK:I like your poems with wine,music,desire..its just so reminds me of you..these things..your poems are the ones i connect with so well..and your stories are all different and bring out intriguing and tough decisions one has to make in ones life..and i am in love with this name Zaira thanks to you..And i seriously loved the testimonial you wrote about me it was just awesome and i haven't felt so nice after reading something about me before..thank you very much.A request that is please start more often than not again :) 
Ninu:he has left blogging ask him to resurrect people :/ he writes randomly and anything to everything
P-kay:I just love his stories..he has been working very much lately..can't see him writing from many months..hopefully he will return back cause i miss his stories.
Rupesh(Rup):I liked your blog very much..the one that caught me was Coffee? ;) and the image from UP accompanied by the lovely poem:kuch karke jana hai...I know i haven't replied you longtime but hopefully will pretty soon.Nice to know whatever little i could of you :) and yeah all the best for all the endevours you are going to take and are taking :D
The other side of me:she is my bestieeeeeeeee i can write her oodles and get oodles from her..her blog is one more charmer which will leave you ending up at all times of the day there..you'll know about her life so well from her blogs and her poems are lovely
Vaisakhi Mishra:writes pain and love both beautifully and has never made me feel a stranger to her :)

And these are some new people who i have got acquainted with and would wish to check out there lives more often than not
Jztsignedup:Dude you are missing..hopefully you'll knock in soon.Remember you have a duty after signing up :P 
Swanrose:His blog emits a beautiful aura that i told him the first time i visited his blog.haven't been able to read you since long sowie :( ..His poems portray love in pain and pain in love with the a hint of longing and ray of hope for happy ending is superb! 
The lonely recluse:Currently burdened up with uni things :P  You write something very different and i don't know in which category it falls .I like your dark posts :)
Niya:She possesses this great epitome of love for everyone :) 
Reicha Ahluwalia:A very sweet girl who really does make her belief of miracle happens come true
Anjali:Jolly person and i find her musings so very different you can't put them into any category they are of their own unique origin
Lil angel:Sorry girlie i haven't been able to reach you from sometime..she is really an angel with her writing and one of my lovely follower i would say 
Hamza Bin Laden:A great influence on almost every second person that visits his blog..his writings leave me laughing and he never fails to flatter with his comments :P ..yippeeeeeee he is also of same age as mine :P
Tarunima:She is a greatttttttttttttttt poet i have ever seen till date..i am left wondering and awestruck after every work i read from her
Little things in love:Seriously i don't know her name :P She might not know me but i have commented i guess on one of her posts :P but the thing is i have read every post by her :D The way she writes about her 'S' is sweet.I like to read YOUR stories girl :)

Now people i would like to know from this time are these
Serendipity:Your dp did feel like a professional artwork until and unless you revealed the story behind it..i just love her personal musings in the end :) i am not saying only those :P her writings are also wonderfully displaying different caliber each time you read her :)
Crystal:Your blogger name is wonderful and your blog has caught me so very well..i just love the very aura of it
PeeVee(priyanka):I like the most part of her that she is a chocolate lover :D :D i know thats so selfish of me :P and after i visited her blog i feel like she can be and write from anything to everything with a hint of intellect and jolliness :)..Hope to know you more
Rahul:I laugh after i read your posts :) simple things but put in a very innovative way..totally cranky dude ;) Would like to indulge more often than not. 
The guy in the mirror:haven't been reading much lately but will strike up soon..you write simply you.. direct from heart :)
Saru Singhal:I'll know you soon :) 
Jidhu Jose:Your photography is awesome!
Valli:Arty and seems so innocent with her penned poems.
Ovais Shaikh:I wish you are happy most of the time :) and you also write nice so it's not that you should end up saying wish i could write like you :P

And last but not the least a very strange kind of a person who visits my blog almost anonymously and praises my work like it leaves me smiling.That person becomes my guest is missing from somedays and i am missing that person too where are you Mr. Guest?

So this was enough of known, knowing, want to know and now i would like to share a award with five people which i have received from The lonely recluse ..Thank you very much Lonely recluse :) and it's a rule to share :P
In German—“liebster” means “dear,” from the verb “lieber” [to love]“.

    • Thank the giver and link
      back to the blogger who gave it to you.
    • Reveal your top 5 picks
      and let them know by leaving a comment on their blog.
    • Copy and paste the award
      on your blog.
    • Have faith that your
      followers will spread the love to other bloggers.
    • And most of all – have
      bloggity-blog fun!

There is this one person i shall not name that i want to give the award too because that person likes to be anonymous here most of the time.I'll ask them and if they provide me with a yes and i will reveal there name then :)
Eon Heath:Your shayari blog :)
The other side of me

Those i did not name please don't be sad cause i could only give this award to five people and i made the picks.I like to read you all :)
Okey here is one more thing i want to add up in this very post and that is that i haven't been writing lately and don't know at present when would be my time to write regular so here is wishing everyone over here a very happy diwali..may your house be enlightened with love,prosperity,good health and wisdom!
And those who are going to celebrate Halloween for them Happy Halloween :D

Yeah you saw it right..Bring me the candies :P :P and the diwali goodies too hehehe..
Hope i bored you well ;)
Take care
have a safe and happy diwali and a frightening Halloween :D

Saturday, October 08, 2011


Not that the one who has not faced it understands it completely but still they do to some extent.The pain that one has to bear for a lifetime and the nightmare that never seems to erase off no matter how hard you try to wipe off and start a fresh.
Through the silent room soft sobs were let away in the winter air.Rohini hugged herself tight through the blanket wrapped around her.She had been touched and exploited by someone who had known her and that what pinched her the most the way she could do nothing about it.She could not tell anyone and the one with whom she shared it with she didn't know if that person understood or not that what it really was like.The pain that she was experiencing.One year is about to pass by she is still struggling with the memory.It's painful and tears trickle down her cheeks and she can't tell anyone that what is that she cries for.Through the dark night and the insects are the only company to her.Trying to lull her to sleep by there incessant sounds.
The sun rises wishing a smile to every face that wakes up but what about the one who never slept just because they were afraid that he would catch her in sleep too and she could not run away from that thought until she could break her nightmare immediately.No one besides to put her head to rest on there lap and caress her hairs softly to make her know that she will be safe no matter what.
Her heart seems to stop after she is finished on tears.She has to begin her day again holding her head high and bearing a fake smile just so that she can make through the day to find again the haunting night inviting her on a spree of innumerable sleepless nights.
If only he knew what irreversible harm has he done to her..

P.S.-Abuse in any way sexual,verbal,date,cyber etc. have equal impact on the mind and heart of a person.If only it could stop..if only the people we knew didn't cheat us..if only they knew how much pain does it cause..if..
A pray and a wish that i add for every cry and every tear shed by the abused each night in their confined walls that if there is a power that can heal or stop then may it do so before they loose their hopes and wish to live.

Monday, October 03, 2011


This poem is submitted by me for Thursday Poets Rally 53!
Ruffled up countenance.
Cascading hairs fall down.
A rhythmic caress, 
ticklish touches,
a smile so naughty, 
a pounce so wild.
The heavy breathing,
merged with pulsating soul.
Cold skin collides! 
Becoming sweaty; 
in the bloody ordeal of,
Temptation of the trickle, 
drawing beats closer.
Crimson beads fall joyously all around and over.
Fueling the residing passion,lust and anger.
A seemingly last blow silences it all.
Stares grown warm shared with each other.
Hunger rests upon hunger,
smothering over one another.
Tightening the grips, 
was it just the teaser?

Friday, September 23, 2011

Lost chance!

You don't seem to reply.
I wished it to bespoken by you.
What if they were in my dream,
that i portrayed that big hall, 
a extravagance gather.
We danced to the tunes,
and cheered with the talks.
I ask you a question, 
you raise your eyes and stop.
You ought to answer me, 
at least when i ask you once in reality.
But you loose your chance,
and left me wondering. 
For 'yes' or 'no' which was for me,
on my way wandering.
I cry and submerge. 
I walk down the last aisle of pain.
Get myself a shot to restart,
smoking air I leave my past in ashes.
Lungs filled up it really doesn't matter.
Dropping last bit of emotions,
i will leave you my trail.
When you find me, 
you shall only regret.
If only i were alive, 
that you could have said.

Thursday, September 22, 2011


This Entry is submitted by me for Thursday Poets Rally 52

She softly mumbled near his ears.
He was departing and couldn't hear.
He was in a surge for somewhere urgent.
Her eyes coruscated and a tear exuded.

Conceiving about him.
The day ran in haphazard.
Intermixing,remixing and varying.
Her eyes coruscated and a tear exuded.

Conceiving about her.
The day expected just urgency.
Working,managing and balancing.
His lips turned to a beguiling smile.

The sun scorched,
and their day commenced in delusion.
The moonlight proliferated,
and their reality induced.

Miles apart from each other,
the longing has always been such.
Heightening and dropping frequencies,
once he sighed other she sighed.

He came all the way,
his urgency are over now.
The day expects nothing from him,
as she knows as of now.

Coming closer he heard what she whispers;
"Take care my love and smile always"
He smiled and embraced her,
as she knows as of now.

Saturday, September 17, 2011


कुछ पल के लिए हम भी थे रुके, 
पीछे मुड उन निगाहों का;
आगाज़ ज़रुरी सा जैसे हो उठा |
पर वो न ठहरे हुए थे वहाँ|
कम्बख्त दिल में,  
जो वो रुबरु होने की, 
इक चाह मचल गई थी | 
फिर दर्द सा उठा और, 
वो एक और ज़ख्म तौफे में,
हमारे बिन कहे ही छोड गए |
For ephemeral moment i stopped,
to look back in those eyes,
was so intense a urge.
But he was not waiting there.
Crazy heart had that, 
reeling glances desire.
Again a pain resurrected,
and he left me a gift of wound,
without my need to ask.