"The hardest of all is learning to be a well of affection,and not fountain,to show them that we love them,not when we feel like it,but when they do"

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Monero kone(At corner of heart)..

This entry is submitted by me for Thursday Poets Rally Week 47!

The English version is beneath the Bengali one.

Jokhun ooi duti nishchol chok diye oe meti dekhlo..
                                                         Akashe megh chodiye roeche,
monta kaimun hadiye bolche.

Mayta mon ke jigesha korlo
Aei ki shei adbhut aek anubhob che roye chilish?
Eromi kono bhabe ki moner akansha uthiye chilish?

Nije ke shey bol lo
Aee jowab gulo bodhaye, 
aar dite padlam na aami oke.
Moner chava iche puron korte, 
padlam na aami joto ba che.

Tarpod ooi metar ki holo ?
Shudhu aeto tuk bujhe, 
chokh bondho kore niye.
Aee buker awaj je nistobdho holo.
ooi meghta dekhte dekhte, 
Akashei o nijeke hadiye gaelo. 

In English:
Though it can't be translated with the same feel and actually meaning everything like a poem but still..I have tried my best to explain.

When that girl saw with her two innocent eye,
The clouds have covered the sky.
Her heart is lost and it asks.

She asks her heart
Was this the feeling you were waiting for?
Was this the desire you initiated upon?

She said to herself
These answers, 
i wasn't able to give no more.
I could not fulfill the wishes,
no matter how hard i tried.

Then what happened to the girl?
Just after understanding this much,
closing her eyes.
Her heart stopped beating,
while she was watching the clouds.
And she had lost herself in those.

Sunday, June 19, 2011


The gleaming shine of the sun were dampened.
The white light converted into hue.
Dazed by the realistic proceedings.
The touch of love and throbbing heart,
care and concern both left me in trance.
Spilling rays of purity all throughout.
Smothering me but felt so warm.
It didn't break or shatter at all,
it just weaved the broken connections.
The subtle moments and short lingers,
the trickle of joy and the mingling pain.
I never could imagine a day as such,
hope to carry the essence till last breathe.
Dive in the memories like never before,
submerged and fulfilled,
till splurged up in divine moonlight.
And the night grows spouts,
which caress in disguise.

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

She was within him!

This entry is submitted by me for Thursday Poets Rally Week 46!

Entropic the heartbeat conveyed a little less.
The eyes closed in a haze. 
Advancement towards the future seemed crashing,
hallucinating light of knowledge dwindling.
With the playing liquid in hand,
 the voice hummed a tone.
Pulling her hands; 
he laid themselves in moonlight. 
Twisting her hairs around his fingers,
he softly placed kiss on her cheeks.
She nudged him a little, 
shoved him aside.
But couldn't keep her love from him.
Removing the glass from his hand,
wiping away his tears,
she embraced him in her clasp.
And the night was a pleasure.
The beats fell right in place,
eyes closed with dreams innate.
The future seemed full of bliss,
so delighted he was as she gleaned him.

unexpected drop
rally praises poets dream
acceptance in pride 

I nominate Lonely recluse :

Friday, June 10, 2011

55 Fiction :Accident!

Here is my first attempt at 55 Fiction.Let's know it from you does it make sense or not :/

What am i doing on this hospital bed Alex?
Sweetheart don't panic it's alright.
Alex i have a good news for you.
What is it Zysha?
I am pregnant!
Alex kisses her forehead.
The doctor enters there room and says
 "Sorry we could not save the baby."
He hugs her and sobs fill the air.

First tag taken..

So here i have been tagged by Simran and i have taken it up finally..Gladly..and thank you simo for the tag!

Food-I shouldn't be grudging..anything that can please my taste buds and make me crave for it is food for me..

Color-Give me yellow and black the most..and red and purple are when i can't cheer up  ..So my favorite color my friend says you should go travel in a taxi all the time 

Animals-Please buy me a fish.Though i like the feline thingy that is cat but i still want a fish..let's make friends 

Sports-It has to be badminton and basketball..Though i really played hockey much 

Dessert-Anything chocolaty are my weakness.

Artist/singer/band-Amm...singer is mohit chauhan and sonu nigam....enrique,natasha bedingfield..Band is strings they rock bigtime.

Pair of shoes-I badly want boots..but as of now sneakers do me good and sometimes on a casual walk flotters are good.

Outfit-Jeans, cargo, Capri,short,tank top..!

Skinny jeans- Nah!!  i am fat!

Perfume-Not much but my favorite is ghost dark (men's)

Accessory-If it's really necessary then let me put on some tops..and is watch considered as one? then i have it all the time.

City-Take me to a dreamland..I am confused about this one..Mount abu,vishakhapatnam,mumbai,jammu and kashmir,Mcload ganj,australia..more would keep on. adding up..

Hobby-Irritating people,boring people,killing time,making people angry,making people sad...Huh! that seems enough i guess 

Beauty product-Kajal, lip gloss and my charm..hang on even my smile 

Snack-How about some french fries 

Holiday-Get me whole of the 365 and something something days...Take me to an island and my dream guy with me..and my holidays would never end

Movie-Constantine,Dil toh pagal hai,Spartacus..

Songs-Tune jo na kaha,jao na,nazre karam,bubbly,put your arms around me,soulmate,zindagi mein koi kabhi aaye na rabba,koi aane wala hai,tu hai asmaan mein,jane kya chahe mun banwara,banwra munn dekhne chala ek sapna,tose naina lage,there's a possibility,kuch iss tarah,beete lamhe....and the list goes on and on and on..

Guilty Pleasures-Hmm...having the darkest possible coffee ...(caffeine its heaven!!)..Talking on and on and on with someone i like to  ....getting wet in heavy rain,walking barefoot on the soft soil and smelling that awesome wet soil fragrance(wishing someone for a company but alone is also a good way to njoy!!)  ..standing by lake for long..

Hmm..I tag Eon Heath , Red Handed
, Anoop , The other side of me , Beyond horizon ,Anjali ,Tarunima, Blasphemous Aesthete!

Monday, June 06, 2011

End to come..

It's eating me up!
The pain inside left despised.
Mortality clutches to my skin tight.
Jealousy is turning dark,
love is far from reigning.
Immortal bliss is hard in find. 
The icy touch on neck,
the cold hands entwined.
I am waiting for my turn and right time..

Sunday, June 05, 2011

To m/e - II

First drops touched my face and it was almost a bliss.I didn't have the slightest knowledge of the upcoming rain.Coming back to home from somewhere and carrying a satchel which i felt for sometime as burden was relived by those instant cooling drops.Flames of the satchels had been bored deep down on me.Satchel was it really like the literal one.I guess no,it was something else.While passing by the lake i thought about the numerous people that have come into my life and will keep coming till i live.All couldn't be mine and neither i wanted them all to be mine.I never wanted anyone to be to me but it just happened and it keeps happening the necklace of my neck keeps on adding a bead or two once in a while to itself.Not that i have completed my necklace its hard to say so cause till now it just has minimal beads.Well i am sufficed with those minimal beads yet i feel the beads haven't rolled in well into the necklace yet and they might fall from the edge or the bead that has enter may crawl to the extreme open end fall down.I may or may not be able to catch it and only memory of that bead will remain with me.
Catastrophic sublimations,freezing and burning leads to the shaping and duration of the beads of my necklace.
There i stood staring inside the lake,all of the surrounding had turned dark but i didn't fear it as if it was one with me crying my tears of agony and sometimes so splashes of happy moments.It was all so confusing one moment i smiled to myself with the image i painted in my mind and the very next moment my lips turned into a sad curve of anxiety and longing.The path it divided into two and i submerged into oblivion waiting to choose one of them.I had to create my own path and i couldn't choose anyone of them,it was hard i said.I was going through trials and tribulations and i no more wanted it to be so and if it had to be pain let it be created by me only.
The infinity of that dark water which was some moments back all crystal blue astonished me.Yes the parts of it were true to us.Once it was all clear to be stared deep down and the next moment it was all so dark that one could not estimate an end if any.Life offers us such situations sometimes it feels like we are blindfolded and initiating on a journey we don't know what will come out of it or sometimes just being totally affirmative of the outcome.
I don't like plans and i don't know how to plan the only thing that i hold in my mind is some piece of m/e.That m/e knows that i crave for it,cry for it,get hurt by it,get happy by it,love it,adore it and can be never separated from it.But it still doesn't answers the existence of m/e doubting m/e sometimes and sometimes just wanting to believe in the truth of it(which is just for that moment and turns into a lie after that moment according to m/e).
Every cell and every drop of blood that surrounds and creates m/e is not important.It is the quintessence that flows through whole being of m/e and helps it to diverge and convulse into the mystic aura of undecided realms .
I dream of m/e every night does its whispers know that?does its kisses know that?does its caresses know that?does its embrace know that? does it know? .....Does it also feel like I feel?..

It never answers m/e and the rain stops and the flames aren't quenched but provided a unknown moistened hotness.