Suffer

The feeling of not having moisture in your skin. In simple terms the skin is dry which happens as begins the winter.

As if it is the harbinger of depleting life.  Same way like people suck out the energy out of you. What would it be like to be feeling this way from a person who is close to you. 

There is an ocean of thoughts that go on if something unexpected or surprising happens. One can understand that, take it in, accept it and move on. But what do you do when you don't understand it in first place. The only thing the mind enjoys doing at that time is overthink.

I want to stay away from somebody when they make me feel sapped out or bad from inside. What if I can't do that with the person who is close. Suffer. That is all there is left till you can't do it anymore.

Ashen

Ashen they laid on the ground,
words that were once alive.
Crying and screaming but no sound,
sewn are the heart and mouth.
Hurt not remaining as it was.
Pain redefining it's limit.
The time of the year showed itself once more,
the broken spell becomes the undoing.
Here comes the barren winter again.

Loyal Companion

"I used to sit in your room and not open the door or the window because you did not like it. It was difficult for me to stay in the room whole day and not go out. But I did it because you liked it that way."

Caging someone in a place where they have to kill their wishes just so that you can be happy.

Controlling your emotions because your emotions will effect someone else.

Relations are always complicated. Sacrifices are the biggest mistake and compromises are key to weaken relations day by day slowly.

Expect but don't expect those expectations to get fulfilled. Life is as it is so difficult and here we get up and make promises to make it more difficult by being in love .

What is right? What is wrong? Who is right? Who is wrong? Whose wishes should be fulfilled and whose done away with?

Make somebody miserable once and then let it be long enough and let that be the last one. Go on with your life alone because as I said it's already difficult itself.

The only loyal companionship that can be  is with hollowness. It never leaves you. Never.

Swinging world

The rain is making the weather a bit cooler and getting rid of the humidity. Life nowadays witnesses relations just like the temperamental weather patterns in India in almost all the regions. Things change so quickly. Before you can wrap your head around a new event another one blows up right in front of you.

Likewise we are surely increasing are speed for accommodating such changes. I wonder what will come next. That is all we can do, wonder or at most predict the future when we don't know for sure.

Young people are becoming more effervescent and the at same time equally gloomy from inside. The ratios are screwed, philosophies are evolving, thoughts are weirdly warped, humanity is crumbling under pride and show-off and the time is running really fast. What does it take to stop the real emotions and feelings to fade away from the life of people. Things are highly digital and virtual. This technology has sure made life easy for most but future seems full of nightmares.

I wonder how far will love make it with all of us. I still love with my heart and soul, at least before i loose it all.

How easy it has become to skip from one track to another and forget about the things that were. Reminiscing is not a cool thing, it will make us loose precious time which could have been invested in following some two minute trend or a new series on the radar.

Living while we can with the real bits is the best thing possible, if only we realise what is real from what is not.

चिंगारी

एक चिंगारी जलाई थी तूने वो बात छेड़ कर

तड़पते रहे उस रात हम

बिस्तर पे करवटें बदल कर

आंखें बंद हुई तो बस एक ही ख्वाब था

तेरे होंटो पे मेरे होंठ

हम थे एक दूसरे की सांस बनकर

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Despair

There is a searing pain as if something is being ripped apart from the body. Its necessary at times to separate oneself from someone, just because you know being together will not make a difference.

It takes time, patience and a lot of pain but i think it eventually happens. You can let someone live in peace and howsoever they want to without burdening them with yourself.

Time and again you realise that how important it is to not put your hopes and wishes on someone else because they would rarely come true.

Magic and fairytales are only there for the books, real life is about longing and despair.