She mistook it all from the very beginning.From the very
start the lies were packaged in a sweetness which left no room for doubt.Every
emotion he had shown or expressed had all been so fake.Now she realized what a
deep grave she had dug for herself.Always thinking that whatever good he had
said was for her or every mood or moment he described was for her to know.He
had just made use of her nicely without letting her know so.It all had been good when she had no attachment
but when someone tells you something lovable don’t you grow a heart for
them,well that is what happened to her.In the twilight she looked at the
infinite sky with galore of twinkling stars and the moon,thinking about him.
The
foolish she was she did not know what had she bargained her life for.The
mistake had been done,she had committed her whole life to him.Giving every
ounce of herself to him just so that she could see him happy.It dawned but
pretty late that all was about him,is about him and will always be about him.
A
picture she had seen with him,long desired in her heart to be true.A hugging picture of a couple,how
she wanted it to be her and him.She learned the truth of the picture which left
her shattered beyond reconstruction.It was not her that he had in his mind
while he looked at the picture but the other girl.Her heart she thought was
being twisted and turned from inside as silent tears rolled down her cheeks.She
did not know to whom she could turn to or how she could just ask him once.The
night sky blurred and she despised the stars and the moon.
All the moments were
so hurtful to remember,every word he had said was hard to hold on to.The trust
was crumbling slowly.But she did not concentrate on that.Still she was thinking
of how she could take away his pain while laying there inside the ruffled sheets
besides him.Tangled together yet so detached.She had meant to ask him last
night about what was eating him away.Now she knew what was it.That other girl
was on her mind and the rest of the puzzle she did not want to assemble them.As
scenes from the last night replayed in front of her eyes.....
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He had been like an animal
ravaging each inch and square of her body.She begged him to stop but all in
vain.Tonight the pleasure had long surpassed and their she could feel all the
pain throbbing throughout her body.As he awoke from the wild trance he realized
what he had done to her.Rushing down from the bed in his naked glory he moved
past the French doors and out.Tears streamed down her eyes, she was
confused.She had known him for quite a long-time this is not how he is she
thought.There must be something bothering him to draw him to such
limitlessness.
Looking outside the misted glasses,she could make out the firm
lining of his back bathed in the moonlight.Gathering strength she stood up
slowly from her stupor .Tracing the way he had followed to go outside in the
balcony.Enclosing her arms around him from the back,carefully resting her face
on his shoulders.As the moist drops touched his back,he flinched.
Removing her
arms from around him he turned back,cupping her face in his hands.She gazed at
those long artistic fingers,as if all forgotten that had happened some moments
ago. He moved her face to look at him.As she looked in his eyes,she could see
them pleading but for what she was clueless.And then she heard his
soulful voice,softly nudging her insides as he said “how could you be still
here comforting me?”
She gave her broken but yet
serene smile bringing her one hand on his face and the other in his hair.After
what seemed like eons she hushed “What is hurting you so bad?”
This one question had such an
impact on him as he grabbed hold of her waist burying his face in the crook of
her neck.Tiny sobs and sniffles accompanying a muffled voice.She held him tight
with one hand and the other one caressing his hair.She was hurting physically
but hearing him cry like this made her heart break even more.She desperately
wanted to take that thing away which made him break so bad.
After quite a lot of
time had passed he raised his head still holding her looking into her eyes with
his bloodshot eyes.She ushered him inside the room .Lying down slowly on the
bed she let him hold her,caressing him,kissing him all over his face and gently
humming his favourite songs to him.His eyes were drooping as he held her face
in them and finally surrendered to his sleep.Carefully cocooning him she closed
her eyes as well,sleeping to have her answers in the morning.
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