"The hardest of all is learning to be a well of affection,and not fountain,to show them that we love them,not when we feel like it,but when they do"

Sunday, March 13, 2011

To have loved and lost




A love. 
Unsaid,unspoken of.
It was silent,
and ephemeral for the moment.
When it spoke,
it left a trace,
of pain and longing.
For the someone who never existed.


I cuddled up in his arms,
stared him inside through the eyes.
Mesmerized by the glance,
he blew a kiss towards me in air.
And i asked him in a tone so low,
Do you trust me?
He murmured a yes.

Clasping him more close,
i entwined my fingers in his.
He kissed my hands.
And i asked in a hushed voice,
Do you owe me something?
He hushed back with a yes.

I placed my head on his chest,
hearing the heart beat.
He brushed my hairs, 
aside from over my eyes.
I asked almost in mute whisper,
Do you love me?
He did not reply.. 

We lay there the same way, 
almost time spent like eternity.
And the silent night silenced. 
In the abyss i fell very afraid.
I opened my eyes, 
and a tear trickled down.
I saw his eyes moistened too.
He spoke caressing and kissing.
'Ask no question and hear no lies.'
If i get away and the promises die down,
I don't want you to wait for me.
I don't want you to stay alone.
I don't want you to harbor the pain.
I don't want to break you apart.
I don't want to leave you to never ever come back..
"So i go away from you before i fall for you"

A love. 
Unsaid,unspoken of.
It was silent,
and ephemeral for the moment.
When it spoke,
it left a trace,
of pain and longing.
For the someone who never existed.


28 comments:

vaisakhi said...

I placed my head on his chest,
hearing the heart beat.
He brushed my hairs,
aside from over my eyes.
I asked almost in mute whisper,
Do you love me?.....beautiful lines....nicely penned...:)

Eon Heath said...

Hey, Hi
for someone who never existed...your lines remind me of "Goodbye my lover" by James Blunt.
nice lines...the only thing that is a bit unusual is, for most the unseen is always good, n here u portray pain, though in a good way...

Regards,
The Silhouette...

Blasphemous Aesthete said...

or maybe, just existed in that brief moment, ephemeral yet true, not to be cried after, but to be cherished like a flower that won't fade.

Cheers,
Blasphemous Aesthete

JAGDISH BALI said...

Very nice. The unspoken love brilliantly expressed in the poem.

Yesha said...

This is really nice. <3

better days said...

A sweet place to be..you described.

Thanks for the note too.

Fatima said...

It was beautiful and touching...you never know maybe he existed !

Nicely penned down...

You've really got a nice blog, glad I visited it :)
Keep Writing !

Take Care.

Lilangel said...

Very touchy :) As always is the case quite often, the love that did not exist leaves a sweet pain behind that is cherished forever :)

Great going gurl..love your poems :)

Alcina said...

@Vaisakhi
Thanks sweety :)

Alcina said...

@Eon
Thanks for that nice analysis..
There are always two sides to a thing so it can be either way you want it :)

Hope you had a happy visit here!

Keep chiming in :)

Alcina said...

@Blasphemous Aesthete
That would be indeed nice to have..a flower that won't ever fade.

Alcina said...

@JAGDISH
Thank you for those encouraging and lovely words.

Hope you had a happy visit here!

Alcina said...

@Yesha
Thank a lot :)
Hope you had a happy visit here!

Alcina said...

@better days
Thank you..
That was my pleasure :)
Hope you had a happy visit here!

Alcina said...

@Fatima
Thanks a lot.

Glad that you could find it so :) ..

Hope you had a happy visit here!

Keep chiming in and yes surely would keep writing ..

Alcina said...

@Lil angel
Correct!

Thank you so much..Glad that you can love them :)

MAVERICK said...

Your expressions are truthful and even more so real and pleasant. Your poems as always transports one to a land of utter reality and nothing less.
Great work . All the best .

Alcina said...

@MAVERICK
Loved the way you described your feel after reading :)

Thanks a lot

Promising Poets Parking Lot said...

vivid imagery,
well done.

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Alcina said...

@Promising Poets Parking Lot
Thanks..well glad you focused on the imagery part according to me which i wanted in this post to be the most :)

Hope you had a happy visit here!
Keep chiming !

Alcina said...

@Promising Poets Parking Lot
Woha that was a surprise at last saying you rock :)
Would surely love to participate..Will check out asap.

Raksha Bhat said...

'Ask no question and hear no lies.'...loved this line:)

Congrats for the entry to the top ten:)

Alcina said...

@Raksha

Thanks :)..and thats my favorite line too :)

And heartiest congrats to you for being on the top :)

Hope you had a happy visit here!

Keep chiming!

Jingle Poetry said...

elegant...


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sajeevkmenon said...

Beautiful thoughts! Like the design and fonts of your blog and posts!

Simran said...

One word for this lovely and touching poem ''EXCELLENT'' :)
You had done a justice with this topic!
Giving you ***** stars on this :)

Take Care! :)

Raghu said...

simply wonderful.. don't knw wht elz to say yaar.. expressed it so well..

p.s: U have gained a regular reader for ur blog..!