"The hardest of all is learning to be a well of affection,and not fountain,to show them that we love them,not when we feel like it,but when they do"

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

If only

I decided i wont talk anymore.I picked up my broken heart and moved towards the exit that i thought was nearest.Coming out i couldn't breathe anymore.Snow flakes touched me softly everywhere,my bare skin tingling to the sensation.I loved him from every bit of my throbbing heart.I told him that but those were on deaf ears.He liked to torture with the diplomacy of not stating the truth.I had left without letting the words out to him "Goodbye" but that was not the way to end.I had left it hanging like he had me.I stumbled with the next step i took on the ice floor that was created almost out of nowhere.Before i could feel the numb ground he held or so i thought and i submerged deep.Sinking where i didn't know,all was dark around.My heart pained.Eyes moistened with the need oozing out of the silly heart.Opening my eyes i could see the crushed petals and i was in land unknown...but i still loved..if only and only just he could understand me....

18 comments:

Kiran Ashraf said...

Its really hard to leave someone without saying a formal goodbye but then its not easy to say farewell to someone u hv loved so much. Hard timess !!!

Confused Soul said...

I cannot tell you how much this post touched my soul.. to the extent that I have a teardrop trickling down my face..

Words play with you..You play with love.. gosh! :|

PurpleMist. said...

This is so sad :( but nicely written :)

Green Speck said...

Touching !!

Alcina said...

@Kiran Ashraf
It seems nothing comes without the hard times :P
And what you said i agree exactly to it.

Alcina said...

@Confused Soul
Aw..! I hope it was not because you became sad when you read it.
Your last line is so bewildering at the same time encouraging!
Thank you!

Alcina said...

@Purple mist
The sad part seems inevitable dear.Thank you.

Alcina said...

@Green Speck
Thank you!

subtlescribbler said...

yes, silent goodbye actually hurt the most. its hard to decide if you are out of it or still a part of it. but then time does heal :)

sarah

PriPat said...

so touching! Its takes a min to say Hello but a lifetime to say good-bye!

I am came towards ur blog... blog hopping... lived the way it is!!

M in love said...

ITs always painful say goodbye.. specially when you dont wish to leave but have no choice :(
The way you have described it crafted so well.. Each time I read you, you leave me admiring your writing even more!

ANJALI.N.KUMAR said...

its painful.... to love, to leave... it always hurts...

really touching dear... good work... keep going :) :)

sneha christall said...

yes!if only he did :/

Alcina said...

:-) yep..n wen it doesnt heal u show on yourself

Alcina said...

Very right.
Thank you for coming here.
Hope you had a happy visit here!!
Keep chiming..

Alcina said...

You can make your own choices you know.
Thank you so much for those words..means a lot..
Tc

Alcina said...

Thank you...glad it could touch you!
tc

Alcina said...

That is what it was all about...if only..